Big day-part 1 (Hopital Sacré-Coeur / Dr Atlas)

So day 1 has arrived... Crazy how time flies by!
I've got my first appointment with the first surgeon, Dr Atlas at sacré-coeur hospital in Ville Saint-Laurent tomorrow! I'm excited, nervous and a bit anxious just because I don't really know what to expect. I've been waiting for this day for nearly 6 months... I've been thinking about it, planning about it for all this time and it's finally here! I can't wait to find out the only thing everyone is eager to find out when getting this surgery: the operation date.

I'm curious to find out how much longer must I wait... I know it can't be done overnight, and I'm glad I have to wait a certain time mostly because I want to feel prepared, ready for the change. I want to feel confident that I am mentally and physically prepared to modify my habits and to undergo such a lifechanging experience.

I never imagined this would ever happen. Sure, when I would sign my membership at a gym and get on a threadmill I would imagine myself skinnier, shopping for new clothes... But I wouldn't realize that not only my body couldn't take what I was trying so hard to have it do but I was going about it all wrong. I was going to the gym to force my body to do down in mass without being realistic about it. My problem was food. And I now realize that not only can food be my problem, but motivation and setting goals was not my strength.

I've got something to look forward to: health. I don't care too much about being skinny, I probably never will be. But I have a goal and my mind is set on reaching it. I want to be healthy, I want to lower, if not completely eliminate my risks of getting diabetes or heart problems. I want to be active, and not have to feel like a couch potato. But mostly, I think of my future. 10 years from now, when I have children, I want them to have a healthy and active lifestyle. I want them to understand that once you have health you can have everything.

I'm glad that thinking back, to my images of myself skinny and shopping for new clothes while walking on a threadmill are now replaced by myself hiking up a mountain or running after my nephews in a park. I'm glad I found the right reasons to want to lose weight. I wish I could have been motivated sooner.

I'm really excited to know what's next for myself. I'm actually proud of myself, for the little accomplishment i've done so far.