Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Motivation: Zero... part 2.

I never believe this day could come so quickly... BUT THE WEEK IS FINALLY OVER! THANK GOODNESS!

I am now off for 4 days for the Easter weekend.

What a week I had! I barely slept, and when I did I woke up with a crick in my neck, back pain and massive headaches...

Today was not any better... I'm not going to get into details, because although I know that having this blog exposes my life to the world, I chose it for myself but not for others. All I'll say is that my anxiety level hit an 11 on 10 today and it was not fun. At all.

I'm sitting at my computer right now (something I have not done in quite some time while blogging, always using my Blogger app on my iPhone). I am tired, but can't get myself to bed. I've got an appointment with a neurologist tomorrow to test for carpal tunnel (apparently this will be fun... not). I am still wearing these stupid splints (aren't they supposed to help???). Hopefully I can have the rest of the day to do some shopping for the house and relax.

I don't know what to do these days. I just can't get a grip on my moods. I am feeling quite low, a bit sad and lonely. I just need to cool off, relax, do stuff for myself, maybe a bit of shopping therapy?

Lots of things are resurfacing and I don't think I'm ready to face them mentally... However I cannot keep pushing them aside, thinking I can deal with them another time.

I wish I could drink away my sorrows lol... but I can't even do that! Can't drink with the medication I take! UGGH!

Let's see what tomorrow brings...

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