I have been feeling really happy these past few weeks but I have no energy whatsoever. I am always feeling nauseous, dizzy and constant muscle and back pain...
As I am waiting for this "miracle" surgery to happen I realize I'm just sitting here waiting for the world to change on its own. Boy am I wrong.
Yes I said miracle surgery. I have to be honest with myself. I haven't been doing anything in preparation for it and it's as if I just expect the surgery to miraculously change my life. Nope. Wrong!
So I'm now decided. This is my Christmas gift to myself. I am going grocery shopping on Saturday with my mom as I always do every week. I will buy myself a bunch of healthy goodies. You may think it's funny that a chunky girl actually would feel good an happy when she eats healthy. I actually do. I enjoy it so much actually that my mood, my mental state and emotions completely change and lift the second I change my eating habits.
You're probably saying: "Christmas is here soon... With all the food and sweets and alcohol how will she do it?". Now the trick I think is to allow yourself a treat without going overboard. We Italians eat for a country during the holidays but one day out of so many won't kill me.
So here it is. My promise. I am motivated. And what motivates me more is to push my boyfriend to do it too. It's a win-win situation. If I get him to eat healthy then he will lose the weight really quickly and the better he gets the more motivated I'll be. (He's got a faster metabolism than me...)
I might even treat us to a weight watchers membership if need be. We will see.
I can't wait!!! Surgery or no surgery I'm going to do what I can!
Until next time,
Gabythegirlnextdoor xox
